Just Plain Exhaused!

Yesterday I was reminded of the scripture that encourages us to run the race with confidence. Only one can win the race. We do it by disciplining ourselves. Seems like I've been running for years, without results. Running to and from God. Running to and from food. Running to and from exercises. Running, running, running and getting absolutely nowhere, (with all of that running, you'd think I'd be burning more calories - hamsters do!)

I read some words written by the Bible teach Beth Moore this morning. She was talking about addictions and how they grab hold of you and how often we just resolve to give in and stop fighting. There are days when we stop running and fighting and we let the grizzly catch us and rip us into tiny, little shreds.

Through the years, I've watched countless people diet and regain, diet and regain, just to diet again. No wonder our minds are so cluttered. No wonder we can't stay focused. We find excuse after excuse after excuse to indulge ourselves and throw discipline to the wind.

I'm so tired of running. So tired of losing the race. So tired of getting nowhere. I'm tired of fighting. Tired of food plans, just plain tired of it all - as a matter of fact, I'm just plain exhausted. There's nothing left of me.

Reviewing the paragraphs I've been writ ting for the past few minutes, there is a common theme - I, I, I, I. Hmmm, seems to be all about me - yep, it's all about me. "I" is an exhausting subject! I'm realizing that self-centeredness is exhausting.

LORD, HELP ME GET MY FOCUS OFF OF ME! I have no more words, only His words. Let Him do his work in me, I'm too tired to continue with my own nonsense!

I Corinthians 9:24 "Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize."

AMEN and so be it!